disillusioned

Monday, March 27, 2006

What time is it?

Just heard that the family is going over to KL this weekend for a holiday.. friday nite till Sunday noon.. which mean i have the whole bladdy house to myself.. Am thinking of have a drinking session on Fri nite.. got a whole stash of hard liq sitting in my racks... 1/4 Bombay Gin, 3/4 Teq, 1/2 Vodka, 2 Chivas, 1 JW (Black), 1 Kahlua and 3/4 Baileys... i think.. got most of them duty free as i used to travel freq in my previous job.. Well see who is s fucking free and wants to spoil their liver with me this friday.. fuck have to get a mixer cos i can't seem to find my old one... have to get one by friday...

My fucked up lecturer basatard me today.. was suppose to go see him today at 4.30 for some help on my project... so when i reached my sch, i gave him a ring.. then that cb said he had to attend a meeting and to meet him at 7... KNN wad the fuck am i supose to do frm 4.30 till 7pm?? if he had told me earlier i would have come down at 7pm... son of a bitch... then i didn't know what fuck to do till then so decided to so went down to the National Library... it muz have been donkey years since i last stepped into a library.. since my fucking schooling years... The library was quite nice... fucking hell this is where all my tax go to ah? 15 stories high (i think) got basement some more to borrowing section and the esclators all soo high tech... got those fucking motion sensors some more... Just realized one thing.. if im ever going to the library to study.. DO NOT go to the 7th and 8th storey...too many distractions.... turn rite.. got gal in short skirt... turn left got another in low-cut spagg top... KNN like tat how to study??! the next 2 hr + was spent looking left and rite.... fucking good exercise for my neck... Ok, then 7pm.. call the fucking lecturer to ask his where the fuck he was so i can go find him... that KNN then said he got a urgent class to take and canot make it today... Fucking bastard.. make me wait from 4.30 then now giv me this kind of rubbish... wanted to fuck him upsidedown there and then but i still need his help to complete 2 of my projects... so had to keep cool.. but was soo fucking pissed that he wasted my day... actually had another class at 7 but it was soo fucking boring so decided to skip it...was feeling hungry then went to BK for dinner before i took the MRT home.. dunno y when i was walking to the MRT.. ppl keep staring at me.. 1st i tot i forgot to zip my pants or wad.. checked it was zipped.. then tot i got food on my face but don't have.. humm strange...

Alvin was talking about some progress shit from the gahmen in the mail today so i checked my letterbox and found 3 mails.. dad, mom and for me... KNN only getting fucking $300 ??!!! get soo little do wad fuck?!! not even enough to go for a trip to bali... CCB.. tot i will get abit more than that.. then realize i need to go online to sign up for something to that $$.. Fuck soo lil $$ but soo troublesome... but heck lah.. free $$ so don't complain.. went to that bladdy website but cannot find anywhere to login... WTF?!! then that KNN Ken said its only starts on the 1st of April then can login.. Fuck wait 1st April try to login to the webpage then get some msg like "Actually got no such thing as progress package, it just an April Fool Joke".. bang ballz lah like that... anyway set reminder on my hp in case i forget then lose my $300... KNN i feel like a begger now... talking about getting $$, i just remembered that i need to e-file my income tax which i still haven do!!! Went online to efile.. luckily my fucking password still works...CB have to pay sooo much tax ah !!! KNN man.. getting only pathetic $300 but have to pay back soo much in return.. in the end still lose $$ wad.. farking hell...ppl here jobless sitting at home still kena wack to pay tax..

Friday, March 24, 2006

Visit

well my aunt and uncle from oz came by my hse for a visit... they have been in sg for abt a week and finally decided to drop by before they leave this sat.. was feeling kinda bad that never visit them all this while but not my fault.. cos they are either out or busy in the day, then at nite i got classes, well except today.. it was good to see them again after such a longgg time.. the last time i saw them was apr'04...i think.. went over for my coz's wedding...and will usually stay at their hse if i go over... fuck man i miss that place!! soo laid-back, beautiful surrounding.... happening nite clubs (where u can get a lap dance for just 20 bucks that will make ur brother soo hard that it want to explode!!), friendly ppl..yea if u walk down the streets, ppl would greet each other even tho they dun know them.. u try in SG they give u that 'fuck off' look or say 'sieow ah'.... knn fucking mentality man... some more everything there soo fucking cheap!! house.. cars.. my cos bought a nissan 350z for bladdy AUD$50 K!!! knn that kind of car will cos > S$120!! fuck man i feel like going there again... AUD vs SING $1.16!! ccb man, sometimes i tink i born in the wrong family... life would be much more diff...

umm.. talking abt family.. i think mines really screwed up.. 3 of my cousins spreading rumours telling others not to talk to me... knn ccb.. my own family members spread this kind of fuck shit within the family itself..wft??!! anyways i nvr did anything to them dunno y the fuck they wan to say such things abt them.. umm.. the only reason i can think of is cos if wad happened btw me and my dad... but fuck you, you 3 bitches!! wad happen btw me and my dad.. IS BTW ME AND MY DAD!!! who the fuck u think u are to get involved?!! no wonder almost 40 still single.. this kind of motherfucked up attitude which guy wan??!! U not happy, at least come up straight to my face and say lah.. knn.. at least i respect u for tat... dunno wad actually happened and still like a coward spread this kind of shit behind my back.. bladdy old pussies!! anyways i see them onli once a yr and not close to them so i dun give a flying fuck... they can probably grow old and die loners for all i care.. dumb fucks. hummm.... ...haven told anyone this b4.. except for onli 1 of my ex-gf...stuff btw me and my dad go back yrs back when i was 14.. can still rem it like it happened yesterday..

I was in my room listening to the radio when i heard a knock on the door.. opened the door and saw my dad.. he barged into the room and started beating me... i was a scrawny lil boy back then so i tried to fend off myself... then then took a swing at me which broke my nose...actually i did not feel any pain at first only a warm feeling down my nose.. i tot it was some mucus of wad..soon blood started ozzing out like nobody's business... withing seconds my t-shirt was covered in blood, the floor was standing on was covered blood and there was blood splatter along the sides of the wall... i nvr b4 seen soo much blood in my life b4... he probably got scared when he saw the blood and went out then my mom came in and tried to stop the bleeding by making me lean my head backwards... sh then brought me to the toliet to wash up... till today i dun know why the fuck i was beaten up tat day until like tat... my mom was saying that the teacher complained tat i was rude or something.. but fuck u man!! tat's no way to discipline a kid... there was also another incident when i was 12.. pri6 then... 6.50am and i was putting on my shoes for school.. then my mother relaized that her $10 was missing.. she asked if i took it and i said no.. then my dad said i muz haven taken it to buy my cards.. i used to be mad abt collecting those dragonball cards then.. sued to save out of measly $1/day allowance and go w/o lunch to buy them.. by then i had got quite a large collection with some "special" cards... he said i took the $10 to buy those cards and didnt believe me when i said no... u know what the fuck he did!!! he took the cards frm my drawer and tore them right b4 me!!! KNN.... and i went to sch crying that day.... that very afternoon my mom found the $10 buck cos she realized that she had misplace it!!! i was sooo fucking mad i went to bed without dinner tat day... final straw came abt 2 yrs ago... a few of my stuff were in the hall as my room was too messy and i tied the stuff i wanted and put them in a bag outside so i got more room to clear... u know that fucker did.. one fine day he just took the bag and brought it down to the dumpster!!! when i came back that day and was searching for my bag... my mom said that he threw it away!! i was soo fucking pissed... not only it contained my stuff.. CDs, books and also stuff belonged to my fren.. KNN i confronted him why he did tat then he said watever that is out in the hall for more than 2 wks he will autmatically throw away... fucking hell this is a house for goodness sake.. not a military camp or DB... he want to rule the place like fucking hitler.. we started shouting then he approach me like wan to wack me.. fucking hell.. this time i nvr back down... i dun care who the fuck the person can be... if they make me angry and still wan to challange me... i'll take them on..no 2nd thoughts. my mom then came and broke us up b4 anything could happen.. luckily in a sense cos if i had taken a swing at him... i'd probably need to find a new place to stay... and yea.. since then we nvr talked... so no probs so far.. lets maintain tat for now.. cos its only a matter of time b4 i get my own place and move out...fuck man i can't wait for that day...

humm.. yea guess enuff my personal shitz.. C msg me yeaterday saying that she got an offer frm another co. but is still thinking of whether to accept it or not... more $$ but lesser job prospects + more OT than her current... told her to tink abt it carefull b4 making a choice... C and me go back some time.. when we were working together in my ex-co. till she left abt a yr ago... diff dept but she was one of the persons i 1st got to knew when i joined the co. started to get closer but nth more cos she had a bf and i a gf then.. usually go for movies / dinners aft work.. then got closer over the next 2 yrs... soon started flirting over SMS or over the ph at nite...meet at the staircases during work for a smoke.....in a co. where almost every motherfucker backstabs another fucker, can safely say we only trusted each other......humm aft she left the co, we still kept in touch but cannot meet up as often cos of job/class commitments... heard she is going to get married end this yr/early nxt yr... wish her well..

but honestly... fuck man..ppl wan to get married now for wad? juz look at the divorce rate... go tru all those trouble and spend soo much $$ on the wedding then Q at MOM for some cb fucking 'date' like 08/08 or wad.. then in the end divorce... wan to divorce also soo fucking troublesome.. have to seperate for 2 yrs then only can divorce.. then all those fucking cb lawyers sit on their fat ass and collect $$ and put in their pocket... no wonder the lawyers car all soo big one.. should be damn fucking rich cos of all the suckers ard.. oh yea talking abt lawyers, i saw that ind lawyer.. dunno what his fucking name lah.. the one wth the beard... the anthony ler case one.. quite famous oso walking at City House when i went to meet John 4 lunch a few mths ago... he like walking ard so relaxed with his hands in his pocket.. probably thinking how the fuck he is going to spend all those $$$ he got in his bank.... all tkz to the s'porean suckers..every small this oso wan to sue... scold vulgaities also wan to sue.. show middle finger also wan to sue.. KNN..

wahh.. tired already.. think i wrote too much already.. going to bed..zzzz

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

From me to you

Went for an interview this morning.. rather interesting one. Frankly i dun rem sending in any resume lately till a guy called me up yesterday.. finally found out that i actually sent the application ages ago.. fucking hell now then call me.. Not really looking for a job desperately on but i tot 'wad the heck'... since im soo free no harm going down to see the place.. who knows wad might happen.. and boy was i right.. haha..

9.30 am sharp was at the lounge waiting for him (fuck, i dunno y ppl like to put interviews soo early in the morning.. probably too fucking free after reaching work dunno wad to do). He then appeared, with his boss.. His boss was this short fat old chn guy... On first impression he reminded me of one of the managers in my ex-co. Got no knowledge about the actual work process but can become manager cos everyday lick his boss ballss tat type.. Fuck i hate these kind of ppl man!! If u think u wanna manage me.. u fucking make sure u know more than me.. else i dun see any bladdy cb reason why i should report to u... im not arrogant or wateva fuck but just dun expect me to report to a ball licking cock carrying fucker lah.. He also got that fucking cunning face (that i feel like pissing all over) and my 1st impressions of ppl are usually rite!! Ok interview started and he started talking about his co.. got branches here there.. everywhere.. got diff depts then all work together blah blah... i almost doze off listen to his fuck shite.. then when i ask his about the actual job desc.. he looked abit blur and asked the other guy to explain to me... Confirmed my suspicion that he was one of those so-called "tok cock ONLY" mgrs.. I immediately knew this was NOT the job for me.. and since im already there..juz see it tru... Some interesting things that happened during the interview...

Lets call that mgr fat fuck.. hahaha

FF: Ok, So tell me about your job experience and qualifications?
Me : It's all stated in my resume.

Strike 1

FF: umm.. So wad kinda process does your ex-co use?
Me : We use the XYZ process.
FF: humm... why not use the ABC process?
Me : I dunno. I juz follow my co procedure. We have been using XYZ for all these yrs.
FF: yea ok, but if ABC is better, why not change to it?
Me: Tat one u have to ask my management. I juz follow their instructions.

Strike 2... (fuck u.. if my ex-co wants to use that process..wad ur fucking prob??!



FF: Ok, we now use DDD method for our co. Is there any way we can improve or enhance this?
Me: Yes, there is. if u change some of the functions, the DDD method can function more efficiently.(this is the truth.. cos i have tried it b4 and it works)
FF: (looking abit surprised, turns over to his assitstant who also looks abit surprised). Oh really? Can you tell us what are the functions?
Me : Ok..But u have to hire me, then i can show u.

Strike 3... KNN u old bastard.. u think i come own all the way to provide free consultation service for u ah?!! Dream on!!



(By now he was looking abit fustrated, but i was enjoying my self..taken the shite.. now im giving back some)

FF: So did ur ex-co use outsourced services?
Me: Yes, we outsourced XYZ services.
FF: Oh, so how much you paying them for their services?
Me: I cannot reveal that kind of financial info to u.

Strike 4



FF: Ok before we end this interview, i like my colleague to give u a short Quiz.
Me: Quiz? Actually i gotta rush for another interview in 30 mins time. Maybe we can carry on with this another time.

Strike 5... fucking hell.. u wan to doubt my qualifications and work exp??!! bastard ur co. is not some HUGE MNC or wad ok..for goodness sake its juz a fucking local co. yet u wan to give me soo much of shite??!


Man.. i tell u that felt good!! hahaha.. Jeff called whilst i was on my way back and told him abt wad happened.. he was thinking of doing it every now and then too...hahaha.. poor chap has been finding for a job for some time now.. still no luck....

bought TNP.. KNN everyday got that tasking shite inside.. the reporters got nothing else to write about ah? everyday protest and protest.. so free one ah the thai ppl??? that tasking also another cock.. got US3 billions dollars in the pocket then still dont wan to retire.. KNN greedy fuck sia... that kinda of $$ can last dunno how many generations of his family man!!! Stupid fuck...

ummm if i got 4 million dollars...

1) i buy a penthouse in orchard
2) buy over Zouk (so can party and drink everyday for free... hahahha)
3) buy a honda integra and mod like fuck
4) give SPCA some $$

oh yea...
5) get the new RAZR V3i (finally a good shite from motorola....)

Monday, March 20, 2006

No $$ No Honey

i just realize i spend quite alot... when u got a job, $$ is not a problem. Every last week of the month, you find your bank balance topped up by a few K for you.. $800 mobile phone, $3.2 K laptop, VIP rooms at clubs, Swarovski crystals for my bitches, my fav clothes at Raoul, movies every weekend.. all tat seemed to be a thing of the past... Come to think of it..im completely living a different lifestyle now.. But at least im not hard-up for a job right now.. Had a few offers the past week, but the pay was pathetic so rejected them flat. Can't believe ppl in SG are sooo desperate for a job that they are willing to accept soo low paying jobs with so much responsibilities??? More job = more pay.. duh.. Maybe they got fianicial problem at home? Maybe kena shotgun then need to support the gal and the kid??

My bank balance probably last me another 2 mths..at least till my exams are over. The can go on a proper job hunt... Oh yea Dave, FUCK YOU FAT MOTHAFUCKER.. U CHEEBYE SON OF A BITCH... U probably got someone to dick-fuck u in the nose that's why your nose was bleeding the other day.. Or probably your nose was mensturating? Better not let me see you again if not i gonna tie a fucking kotex around your face next time. Want to pay peanuts, u better go to Singapore Zoo and hire the monkeys there lah.. KNN...Fuck you bastard!!

Im quite getting used to life at home now... this is a fucking good time to do those outstanding stuff which i had KIV for the past year or so.. hahaha..

1) Clean my room
2) Paint my room
3) Set up my marine fish tank
4) Complete all my sch stuff
5) ummm... yea catch up on my gym (probably aft my exams)

Talking about school work.. i got 5 fucking projs to complete + prepare for 5 upcomming exams.. What kind of fuck planning is the sch doing??!! 1st few semesters quite slack, now damn fucking siong!!

humm.. not bad, i have been able to blog every other day since i started this blog.. hahaha...

Friday, March 17, 2006

Fuck Buddies

Knn.. what the fuck is wrong wit you ppl man?!?!! juz read a blog where this gal goes on abt her so called fuck buddy.. she claims that that there is this guy who is the fuck buddy but claims its wierd cos she doesn't know much abt him?? Apart from his name, 100% male and that he is great in bed.. what the fuck do you need to know??!! his IC no.?? his sec sch?? his army camp?? his father and mother name?? Cheebye.. u might as well as him to send you his resume 1st lah next time before you accept him as your fuck buddy... a fuck buddy is just to fuck when your hole becomes itchy.. not someone to cling on to or go for movies with.. if like that better go find yourself a bf lah biatch... this kind of ppl irritate the shitt out of me...

been bombarded with soo much fucking h/w.. went to see the lecturer today to clear some issues.. just realized that i need to draw quite a no. of bladdy diagrams for my proj.. fuck.. can i just pay someone to do it? At least i'm jobless now so not so bad.. got time to get the shit done..

so many interviews but nobody want to hire me... knn.. they can go fuck themselves lah.. waste my fucking time ask me all the cock Qs and have to smile at their fucking ugly face througout the interview... better relax for a while b4 finding another job.. perhaps till after my exams finish in May.. maybe go for a short trip too.. dirrty weekend in Batam.. hahahah... alamak.. the gahmen now can catch if play gal overseas lah.. knn.. now where to go and play? Bangkok?? humm better not lah.. later open the skirt turn out to be a guy.. just like what happen to Gary the other time we went there.. hahaha... blur cock lah he.. umm now Tasking supporters also roiting like mad there... better stick to Batam.. i really need a break..

Can find a job after that.. ahahha.. To all you cheebye companies who interview me and never select me.... U can suck my cock and call me daddy.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Singaporeans

ahh.. the weekend came and went but it made no difference to me.. everyday is like a fucking holiday once you are jobless...

Went to class in the morning, saw a funnie incident today at City Hall MRT.. 2 guys.. one abt 30 and the other abt 40... they started shouting at each other as they were abt to get on the escalator then the younger guys said "you push me for fuck?"...then the older guy shouted back, "Fuck U..i where got push you?".. then the younger guy rolled up the entire Sunday Times and flung it at the older guy's face...This pissed the older guy and he took a swing at the younger guy.. the younger guy the took a swing and this broke the older guy's specs and sent him flying to the ground.. then a lady came and tried to break them up... haha..

Fucking cocks!! can't believe singaporeans can even fight over something as trival as going up the fucking esclator!???! KNN just give way lah.. 1 person before you wont't make that big of a bladdy difference man... Stupid fucks.. if you ask me, both of them asked for it..

This got me thinking of the ugly side of singaporeans...like when the MRT door's open and they charge in like soldiers going for battle even before the people can alight! All because they want to get the best seats in the train?? or when u try to board a bus and people keep nudging u as the door opens?? i mean what the fuck man!! talk about giving way to others!! even when i was in Sydney and London, the people always let the passengers alight before they board and on the esclator, they always keep to the left so that those in a rush can move up on the right... Fucking kiasu man singaporeans!!

Humm.. got interview with another company tomorrow morning.. 9.30am again!! KNN that interviewer better not be fucking late like the other one... Have to wake up early again.. fuck shit man.. got soccer tonite some more.. AssNearl vs my beloved Liverpool.. 12 am.. KNN.. hope i can wake up in time...

we are all in a fucking rat race.. work all your life then retire when ur weak and wait for your death day... bastardly life man.. i want mine to be more interesting.. i want to retire at 30?? hahahaha....

Fuck.. should have become a rockstar

Friday, March 10, 2006

2nd Interview

knn.. went for my 2nd interview today.. Interview time 9.30am.. was there on the dot, plus was wearing a stupid tie cos the interviewer was soo picky that he complain to the agent the first time round no one wore a tie and not a proper dress code blah blah... wtf man!! its not some senior mgt position or president level or wad sia.. nxt timw wear ties then wear coat then carry brief case got for interview lah.. even more proffessional.. some more SG soo hot which cock will wear tie and walk ard admist the afternoon sun?? bladdy cock...

nvm make him happy so i wore a tie which i borrowed frm my dad... was there on the dot and when i reached there, the recptionist said he kena some fucking accident then will be late.. wtf!! can at least inform me b4 hand.. call me on my mobile n tell lah.. cheebye at least i can go grab some b-fast b4 reaching there.. make me wake up soo early then end up waiting there like an idiot till 10.20am when he brough his fat ass into the office.. i was siting there for like fucking 45 mins doing nothing man.. asshole..

well the interview was ok... at least i guess.. as alot of cock questions like diff senarios n such.. most of the senarios like i am some mgr and incharge of a grp of ppl.. i mean wtf sia.. got no relevance to the job im applying for?? its not a mgr's position for goodness sake man!! anyways ans his Qs and make that fucker happy... dunno can get the job or not lah..

on another note.. sch is being a cheebye.. handed in a project report due 2 weeks later yesterday and the bastard lecturer like not happy cos i hand in earlier.. then trying to find fault with the report say this not in that not in... knn bastard.. then ask me to re-do it again.. knn.. ask him go fuck spider lah.. think i soo free ah.. do a report then re-do again.. told him all the points needed are already inside and i dont see why i shouldn't get an A... dosen't mean i hand in earlier than expected mean its of no quality... fuck his ass back to India man.. wan to play punk with me.. i already have 9 modules this semester, 5 exams and 4 projects and deadling for all then projs are mid next mth!!!! i re-do his father's ass for him lah.... dickhead..

Friday nite and am sitting at home.. no $$$ no honey...

i need a job soon!!!

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

My Virgin Post

ok, i've finally decided to start my very own blog... somewhere i can pen my thoughts ... but is my life soo happening until i have so many things to write abt ?? haha i dun koe.. guess only time will tell. But i'll probably try to do it every now and then tho...but whether or not i hav the discipline that's a diff story...

well was bumming at home as usual today till i recieved a tel call from come courier service.. the guy said that there was some parcel to be delivered for me?? umm.. i wonder what it is..humm.. its not my b-day, not any special day either!! wanted to ask him who the sender was but he already hung up the ph.. i wonder wat it might be.. juz hope it not some bomb or smth sent by my enemies that would explode in my face aft i opened it... haha.. wells guess i have to wait and see..

hiya fuck man.. its almost been a month and im still jobless..but bummin' ard at home is good.. but the wierd thing is i can't slp aft 0830.. somehow my body has already been accustomed to waking up for werk early every morning.. but its good so i can start finishing my projects for this semester faster... damn i really need to manage my time cos i got like fucking 9 modules to clear this time round.. and the break from working life is giving me wad i need.. but need to find a job soon.. my fucking bank account looks like its gonna empty soon.. KNN

2 interviews still pending.. we'll see how it goes..

ciao